Dont let your dreams, be dreams.

I dont think she understands the sacrifices that I made,
Maybe if this bitch had acted right I wouldve stayed,
But ive already wasted over half of my life I wouldve laid,
Down and died for you I no longer cry for you,
No more pain bitch you,
Took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet,
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it,
Now my respect I demand it,
Imma take control of this relationship,
Command it, and imma be the boss of you now goddamnit,
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me,
So you better hear me out this much you owe me,
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while ive stayed,
Paved for all the way this is how I fucking get repaid,
Look at how I dress fucking baggy sweats, go to work a mess,
Always in a rush to get back to you I aint heard you yet,
Not even once say you apreciate me I deserve respect,
I’ve done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness,
And I know that if I end this I’ll no longer have nothing left,
But you keep treating me like a staircase its time to fucking step,
And I wont be coming back so dont hold your fucking breath,
You know what youve done no need to go in depth,
I told you, youd be sorry if I fucking left,
Id laugh while you wept,
Hows it feel now, yeah, funny aint it, you neglected me,

Did me a favor though my spirit free you’ve set,                                               But a special place for you in my heart I have kept,                                          It’s unfortunate but its,
Too late for the other side,
Caught in a chase,
25 to life!

You will pay for what youve done.

When you have nothing, you have nothing too lose!

1. Had a threesome.
2. Been drunk.
3. Touched a real gun.
4. Done drugs.
5. Wrote on a bathroom stall.
6. Took “naughty” pictures of myself.
7. Had sex.
8. Got into a fist fight.
9. Used Twitter.
10. Listened to Lady Gaga.
11. Been in a car accident.
12. Gotten suspended.
13. Gotten expelled.
14. Got a computer virus.
15. had a hand written diary.
16. Been allergic to something.
17. Had a dog.
18. had a cat.
19. Been pregnant.
20. Had a pregnancy scare.
21. Had unprotected sex.
22. Camped out.
23. Swam in the ocean.
24. Wore a bikini.
25. Met someone and recognized them from Myspace or Facebook.
26. Made a survey.
27. Used ICQ.
28. Failed a class for the year.
29. Repeated a grade.
30. Went to summer school.
31. Was on the honor roll.
32. Got the regular honor roll (A’s and B’s).
33. Learned to speak another language fluently.
34. Read an entire book.
35. Recorded my own music.
36. Had an Xbox.
37. Listened to Rammstein.
38. Wore fishnets.
39. Bought skinny jeans.
40. Been in love.
41. Hated someone.
42. Been cheated on.
43. Cheated on someone.
44. Had a bf/gf.
45. Been kissed by somone of the same sex.
46. Practiced Christianity.
47. Worn makup
48. Had a cavity.
49. Had surgury
50. Had my license.
51. Been to college.
52. Graduated high school.
53. Took antidepressants.
54. Worn colored contacts.
55. Painted my nails black.
56. Broken someone’s heart.
57. Had my heart broken.
58. Cried for an hour straight.
59. Lost something very valuable.
60. Had sex in a car.
61. Got separated from my parents as a kid.
62. Broken a bone.
63. Gotten stung by a bee.
64. Eaten something bad/expired.
65. Threw up from being so drunk.
66. Had to put a pet to sleep.
67. Participated in a swinger’s party.
68. Owned an iPod.
69. Owned an iPhone.
70. Fell for a best friend
71. Stole a friend’s significant other.
72. Slapped somone in the face.
73. Went away from home for more than a week.
74. Moved out.
75. Ran away.

76. Teased my brother/sister.                                                                    77. Ate too much to move.
78. Been to the hospital to visit somone.
79. Had food poisoning.                                                                              80. Had a job.                                                                                          81. Been fired.                                                                                        82. Lied to a friend.
83. Lied to a family member.
84. Lied to a significant other.
85. Posted a video on YouTube.
86. Started a rumor about someone.
87. Didn’t try on a test but still passed.
88. Dropped out of school.
89. Gotten my “private parts” pierced.
90. Been skinny dipping.
91. Counted to a million.
92. Counted to a thousand.
93. Ate deer meat.
94. Ate duck meat.
95. Had fast food.
96. Been to church.
97. Been to a synagogue.
98. Been married.
99. Had a divorce.
100. Broken a window.

See if im feeling down like everyone fears, im not afraid to let it out if anyone hears, if i had the power i’d change you to the old you, and take away all the people that control you, your in denial and your stuck in it bitch, you dont think for yourself you just a puppet on strings, i know your insecure mother fucker just think, why else would a song like this get under your skin.

and the lyrics of a thousand songs couldn’t paint a picture
so beautiful, she had me from my first conversation with her
see nobody was ever as clever
still cant figure how they put it together
sittin in the room where we first got lost in one another
just trippin off the feeling of together we discovered
now I’m reminiscing on days past, escaping the pearl
before taking that hold and making it too hard
but it was scary to be even this close to a perfect fit
close your eyes, i promise this wont hurt a bit
this is the kinda love that inspires the stuff i write my poems to
the kind of love you have to live. just to come home to.

summer sun on my windowsill, i sit and think and wonder,
you know that i miss you still thou we were never lovers.

I'm just so fuckin depressed
I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
but I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick the mic back up

Just one more fight And I’ll be history

Yes I will straight up Leave your shit

       And you’ll be the one who’s left

              Missing me